Inspiration

I am the boy who caused you so much pain 21 years ago
I am the boy who always envied his bro because of his toys
I am the boy who hid in the large monsoon drain cutting his nails while he was waiting for the bus..becuase he was ashamed
I am the boy who played doctors and patients with the girl next door
I am the boy who always became the patient
I am the boy who took the same girl out for a bicycle ride and ended up crashing
I am the boy who scarred half his face becuase of that crash
I am the boy who lost your valuable toy cars..and am still sorry for it

I am the boy who sent you marching down to the headmaster’s office while he was only seven
I am the boy who stood by the door silently while you were whipped by the headmaster
I am the boy who bore stripes on his legs on an almost daily basis
I am the boy who never learnt and thus got more stripes…both of us did
I am the boy who got chased out of the house
I am the boy who felt homesick he called home everyday
I am the boy who soothed you while you sleep..continuously patting you on the back
I am the boy who wasn’t head prefect becuase i couldn’t say the doa (i could)
I am the boy who saved your life..and almost drowned in the process
I am the boy who planned for a party…and was sad because only half turned up
I am the boy who scored a goal.

I am the boy who cried while we fought…not because of pain..but becuase of emotional pain
I am the boy who teared when he watched cartoons
I am the boy who joined band because his mother challenged him to and the dm looked real cool
I am the boy who wanted to be DM
I am the boy who became DM, and conductor, and tbone section leader, and…
I am the boy who made you cry while interviewing you
I am the boy who called you up the next day…to make sure you were okay
I am the boy who fell off the stage…and broke a tooth
I am the boy who got his nose whacked by the mace..and now have a crooked nose
I am the boy who got injured by the mace…many many times…including a dislocated thumb
I am the boy..who called the mace my gf…and had to share her with two others
I am the boy who scolded all of you though i never meant to
I am the boy who had such great pals and members…that we made it to the top
I am the boy who upon clearing his debts…spent 5000 the next day
I am the boy who was to shy to sing in public
I am the boy who shivered everytime he stood in front of the public and debated
I am the boy who can never play sports
I am the boy who had a mask on all the time

I am the guy they called a robot..emotionless
I am the guy who still enjoys the simple things in life….a beautiful sunset, the smell of fresh rain, a simple meal with family and friends
I am the guy who had many secrets….and will still have many secrets
I am the guy who fell for you
I am the guy who let you down
I am the guy who started the concert
I am the guy who still drops by school once in a while
I am the guy whose heart bleeds for the band in its current state
I am the guy who has many friends but doesn’t realise it

but ultimately
i am the guy who is your friend and
i am the guy who wil be there…when you need help…or when you feel lonely…or when you need someone to lean on….i am your friend..that means you, you and you..

whenever i put this poems up…i sound really desperate…hehe
another one…when i was 16 ithink
well either this or sadistic stories :p

Oh girl,

Who are you?
Where have you been?
Why are you here?
How did you know?

What have you done?

Oh girl,

Who are you?

That you suddenly came into my life,

Destroying balance and logic,

Upsetting the complex thoughts of my mind,

Causing me to fell weightless . . .

Weightless… like the birds flying in the sky,

Feeling freedom… the freedom to appreciate
this new sensation… called Love.

Oh girl,

Where have you been?

All my life, when times were right,

When things were in place,

And you came and upset the balance of time,

Making me go haywire without reason,

But yet, you were there in times of turmoil,

Standing firm and strong in the face of
adversity,

Standing … for the sake of Love.

Oh girl,

When is the time?

The time of perfect symmetry,

The evolution of hope,

The time when we can get together,

To uphold each other

But the time has past,

In which you cradled me in your arms

Giving me security…and showering me with Love

Oh girl,

Why are you here?
That your presence itself causes insanity,

Making me mad and delirious,

Breaking the essence of my life,

Causing confusion to my senses,

But without you I cannot survive,

For you are the very meaning of life to me,

Bringing peace to my madness…because of your
Love.

Oh girl,

How did u know?

That you were needed,

That you were wanted,

But yet you did not come,

Causing me to pine for a love not found,

But when you were there,

It was as if it just rained in the desert,

With the rain comes the sprouting of life, and
the hope of Love.

Oh girl,

What have you done?

That once we have built the walls,

You tore it down again,

You caused me grief unspeakable,

But yet, I will live my life,

Built on memories of joy, of times we had
together,

And rekindling the flame, cradling it in my
arms,

Saving it from the foolishness…of something
called LOVE.

another poem i wrote….a foolish young soul of 16 i was then….and it seems i’m still a foolish soul at 21 now….enjoy

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me,

There’s a truth in your eyes saying you’ll never leave me,

A touch of your hands says you’ll catch me whenever I fall…

-When you say nothing at all, Ronan Keating-

How I wish this was true,

Just a smile…it’s all I long from you

The more I listen….

The more I wait…

Just for that look.,

Those touch…

Oh how I wish.

Everyday you walk by,

It’s like I’m not even there…

Am I not alive?

Am I not living?

Then…

Why do you treat me like I never existed?

Like I’m a gift you never wanted

When will I get to sing this song?

Just to sing it without any doubt

That the song will come straight from the heart

With no falseness…

With no fakeness…

Just to sing this song…

To know that you’ll never leave me

To know that you need me too…

That you’re there…to catch me…

But mostly…that you’re there….

Tell me….  tell me why?

Why do you do such a thing?

I’ve placed all my hopes, my ambitions

And with one move you brought it down…

I’ve sacrificed…

Everything for you

Everything you’ve wanted….

It’s your joy that I seek

The smile…it just makes me meek

Just for you to be happy

To acknowledge my presence…

But you didn’t even realise did you?
That I was there all along…

Still… why am I waiting?

Why am I foolish enough to wait for you?
Knowing that you’d never love me…

But what can I do?

I’m trapped in this endless circle…

It’s not infatuation,

It’s not even childish play

But it’s love…and so…

I’ll wait…I’ll wait till that day arrives

That day…

When I can sing this song with no regrets.